I guess I just don't understand how someone can not want to do better than what they grew up with. How can you not want your kids to have a better life than what you had? How can you not care that your kids are growing up in fiflth? Not everyone lives like that, you can see that. It shouldn't be normal. It isn't healthy! How could you not want to do everything possible to make sure that they aren't ashamed of how they grew up? How can someone who had a more normal life not care that their child is growing up like that? Nothing makes up for it, not drugs, not sex, NOTHING!
I just really don't know what else to say. It really hurts me.
I'm wondering if I do have a little ppd. Some things I have been feeling for a long time though. I think I might have some kind of chemical imbalance. My head is fuzzy, I can't think straight. I don't know where to start. I'm afraid of getting a wrong diagnosis. I just don't think I can handle all of the stresses. I don't want to keep feeling like I have to send Ava away every day. She's not really that bad of a kid.
I might change my blog to private.
We're going TOTing tonight, I hope it turns out alright.
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Saturday, October 27, 2007
Ava
She can be so sweet. She is so good with her brother. Except she thinks it's funny to scream in his face when he's trying to fall asleep. It's annoying. He loves her right back and laughs at her when she does this stuff. She has to give him a kiss before he goes to bed at night.
Last night we went to a playdate and she stuck close to me. She did actually eat. Most of the time she won't eat if we are out. All the other kids were carving pumpkins but Ava was playing with toys. Probably because the other kids were busy. There was a little boy that she was playing with. He's a little younger than her but he didn't want to carve a pumpkin either. I got a comment on how quiet she was. Then we went out to the car. She didn't want to go home and was screaming. lol
She isn't potty training. She refuses to sit on the potty chair. I'm not going to push her. I'm under way too much stress to worry about that right now. We can't even bribe her to sit on the potty fully clothed. I feel pressure from outside to push her though. It seems that all my nieces were trained well before her. Maybe I missed a window of opportunity. She doesn't even mind that her diaper is wet. I think she could wear the same diaper all day and not care one bit.
I can't believe how creative she is. She names objects that aren't dolls or anything as mommy, daddy (for instance pumpkin), baby or Ava (ah-va). She is getting better at coloring. We get her the Color Wonder markers so she can't write on anything else. She likes to draw on the cardboard portion. I took pictures because the marking eventually fade.
This is her drawing.
This is a couple of her faces. She actually drew hair on them. lol The one on the left; the circle around the face is the hair. The one on the right; was a face to begin with then she drew another face inside of it. The circles or dots she said were balloons.
A close up of a face with the hair.
This is what she drew when I asked her for a flower.
She is getting better with her speech. Most of it I still have to stop and think about what that means. Beebeet is her blankies.
She likes to sleep with all three of her blankets. When we go somewhere I usually only take one with us. She'll ask in the driveway, 'more beebeets?'. She asked me to wash them yesterday but then acted lost without them. I let her watch them while the washer was filling with water. Then I showed her the bubbles from the agitation. They didn't get dried she took them right from the washer. They were only mildly damp.
Yesterday my aunt called to see what the kids wanted/needed for Christmas. I gave her a few suggestions for Ava then asked Ava if there was anything else she liked. She said 'daddy'. lol Okay, that's easy, we'll just put a bow on daddy.
She loves dolls (dollys as she calls them) and balls and cars and trains. She isn't prejudiced.
She won't let me play with her hair. I can't do anything with it. I would like to go without cutting her bangs again but she won't wear anything on her head. She really needs them cut. She looks so sloppy, like I don't take care of her.
Last night we went to a playdate and she stuck close to me. She did actually eat. Most of the time she won't eat if we are out. All the other kids were carving pumpkins but Ava was playing with toys. Probably because the other kids were busy. There was a little boy that she was playing with. He's a little younger than her but he didn't want to carve a pumpkin either. I got a comment on how quiet she was. Then we went out to the car. She didn't want to go home and was screaming. lol
She isn't potty training. She refuses to sit on the potty chair. I'm not going to push her. I'm under way too much stress to worry about that right now. We can't even bribe her to sit on the potty fully clothed. I feel pressure from outside to push her though. It seems that all my nieces were trained well before her. Maybe I missed a window of opportunity. She doesn't even mind that her diaper is wet. I think she could wear the same diaper all day and not care one bit.
I can't believe how creative she is. She names objects that aren't dolls or anything as mommy, daddy (for instance pumpkin), baby or Ava (ah-va). She is getting better at coloring. We get her the Color Wonder markers so she can't write on anything else. She likes to draw on the cardboard portion. I took pictures because the marking eventually fade.
This is her drawing.
This is a couple of her faces. She actually drew hair on them. lol The one on the left; the circle around the face is the hair. The one on the right; was a face to begin with then she drew another face inside of it. The circles or dots she said were balloons.
A close up of a face with the hair.
This is what she drew when I asked her for a flower.
She is getting better with her speech. Most of it I still have to stop and think about what that means. Beebeet is her blankies.
She likes to sleep with all three of her blankets. When we go somewhere I usually only take one with us. She'll ask in the driveway, 'more beebeets?'. She asked me to wash them yesterday but then acted lost without them. I let her watch them while the washer was filling with water. Then I showed her the bubbles from the agitation. They didn't get dried she took them right from the washer. They were only mildly damp.
Yesterday my aunt called to see what the kids wanted/needed for Christmas. I gave her a few suggestions for Ava then asked Ava if there was anything else she liked. She said 'daddy'. lol Okay, that's easy, we'll just put a bow on daddy.
She loves dolls (dollys as she calls them) and balls and cars and trains. She isn't prejudiced.
She won't let me play with her hair. I can't do anything with it. I would like to go without cutting her bangs again but she won't wear anything on her head. She really needs them cut. She looks so sloppy, like I don't take care of her.
Friday, October 26, 2007
The week in review
Tuesday was the big nursing meeting. It wasn't much really it did answer some questions but it was pretty much what I discussed with the dean in our meeting. But wow, 130 people for 40 slots, lots of competition! I'm nervous. I really need to study for my TEAS. Only two months to go.
Lucas had his ears checked again yesterday. The dr said she couldn't say that his ear has cleared yet. So he's on antibiotics again. Hopefully, this will be the end. We have another appt in 3 weeks then right after that is his 6month appt. We are going to spend the winter in the dr's office I think. Poor baby! But I like this dr so much better. She checked his ears while he was sitting on my lap and not pinned down on the table. And she talked to the kids. I liked the nurse a lot better too.
I'm feeling a little better but not excellent.
Ava is sleeping in her big girl bed finally. We had to put the mattress on the floor. She plays instead of naps though. She's been cranky with no naps lately. I'm going to try to stick it out and hope she will nap.
So the bed frame is in the dining room. I hate that. I hate clutter. But Jay won't take care of it. So I'll have to figure out where to put it while I'm doing everything else. Just too much stress.
Lucas still isn't sleeping through the night again. I wonder if it has to do with his ears. We'll switch him to the crib in a week I think. Maybe he doesn't like the pack and play. I can't keep going on little sleep.
I lost my train of thought so I may be back. Kids are up now.
Lucas had his ears checked again yesterday. The dr said she couldn't say that his ear has cleared yet. So he's on antibiotics again. Hopefully, this will be the end. We have another appt in 3 weeks then right after that is his 6month appt. We are going to spend the winter in the dr's office I think. Poor baby! But I like this dr so much better. She checked his ears while he was sitting on my lap and not pinned down on the table. And she talked to the kids. I liked the nurse a lot better too.
I'm feeling a little better but not excellent.
Ava is sleeping in her big girl bed finally. We had to put the mattress on the floor. She plays instead of naps though. She's been cranky with no naps lately. I'm going to try to stick it out and hope she will nap.
So the bed frame is in the dining room. I hate that. I hate clutter. But Jay won't take care of it. So I'll have to figure out where to put it while I'm doing everything else. Just too much stress.
Lucas still isn't sleeping through the night again. I wonder if it has to do with his ears. We'll switch him to the crib in a week I think. Maybe he doesn't like the pack and play. I can't keep going on little sleep.
I lost my train of thought so I may be back. Kids are up now.
Thursday, October 18, 2007
Blah!
I just cant get out of this mood. I don't know why I am feeling so low lately. I just don't know how to shake it. I want to cry. What reason do I have to feel this way? I want to sleep all day.
Good news is that I got 22/30 on my invasive species project. Not great but a whole lot better than I was expecting.
Lucas is starting to sit up on his own. He's growing too fast!! Ava didn't do that till she was 5 months old. He is so cute despite waking up at 3-4am every morning. Why is he doing that?
Some people shouldn't have kids. They make me sick! I didn't need to worry about that too.
Good news is that I got 22/30 on my invasive species project. Not great but a whole lot better than I was expecting.
Lucas is starting to sit up on his own. He's growing too fast!! Ava didn't do that till she was 5 months old. He is so cute despite waking up at 3-4am every morning. Why is he doing that?
Some people shouldn't have kids. They make me sick! I didn't need to worry about that too.
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Mackinaw City
Friday we left to go to Mackinaw. This is Lucas's first trip. It took us an hour to get 15 miles. We had to make a few stops while in town. Then we get to Schoolcraft and there is a very slow moving train. ugh So we stopped for lunch. lol The rest of the trip went okay. There was a point that Lucas was not happy and was screaming. I think it was because his hat fell over his eyes and he couldn't see. Poor baby. Ava did good though. We got there and got unloaded and had pizza in my IL's room. It was pretty good but late by the time we got out of there.
Ava does not sleep well outside of her own bed (crib). This weekend was no exception. It took over two hours for me to get her settled down enough to go to sleep. I has to be me becasue Jay gets all pissy and mean. Then Lucas wakes up at 2am. Ava has to get up too. He gets up at about 4am too. Between 2 and 4 Ava is not really sleeping, she's laying down then picking her head up to get in my face and say something to me. She did finally get to sleep and slept till 9am.
This is her in the morning.
We decided to go to the island. After getting up and eating and getting dressed the first ferry we could take was at 1pm. Ava loved the boat! She talked about it the whole rest of the weekend. lol
We really didn't do much. We shopped around a little bit. Then we stopped at a park so that I could nurse Lucas. I had wanted to stop at this one area that was kind of inside but I kept getting the eye from some old lady. It was cold but we still managed.
Jay and Ava walking through the park.
The bridge.
Ava walking on the boardwalk.
Another picture of the bridge.
Lucas sleeping in the stroller. Big difference from last weekend, we had to wear coats.
We came back to the hotel and let Ava swim a little bit. Lucas couldn't go have his first swim, he still has the ear infection. He enjoyed being there though.
Ava and Jay.
Lucas being a ham! He loves the camera.
Ava jumping on the bed. This was before dinner after her swim so she was nekkid. lol
We went to dinner that night and it was good but I had ice cold water dumped on me. They took my coat to let it dry out but my jeans were still wet. I was holding Lucas at the time. I don't think he got wet much at all. Thank goodness.
Ava slept a little better saturday night. She woke up at about 11pm screaming. She didn't open her eyes though and she calmed down after 15-20 minutes. She would not let us comfort her or anything. I think she had a night terror. She woke up a little bit when Lucas woke up but it didn't take long till she was sleeping again. We went to breakfast and then did some shopping. It took a little longer than usual for some reason. We didn't get home till about 7pm. We had to stop a few times for Lucas. He was getting tired of being in that seat. Ava was so happy to be in her own bed (crib). I had hoped that maybe she would come home and want to sleep in her bed but no such luck.
That was our very exciting trip. Maybe we'll get to do more next year.
Ava does not sleep well outside of her own bed (crib). This weekend was no exception. It took over two hours for me to get her settled down enough to go to sleep. I has to be me becasue Jay gets all pissy and mean. Then Lucas wakes up at 2am. Ava has to get up too. He gets up at about 4am too. Between 2 and 4 Ava is not really sleeping, she's laying down then picking her head up to get in my face and say something to me. She did finally get to sleep and slept till 9am.
This is her in the morning.
We decided to go to the island. After getting up and eating and getting dressed the first ferry we could take was at 1pm. Ava loved the boat! She talked about it the whole rest of the weekend. lol
We really didn't do much. We shopped around a little bit. Then we stopped at a park so that I could nurse Lucas. I had wanted to stop at this one area that was kind of inside but I kept getting the eye from some old lady. It was cold but we still managed.
Jay and Ava walking through the park.
The bridge.
Ava walking on the boardwalk.
Another picture of the bridge.
Lucas sleeping in the stroller. Big difference from last weekend, we had to wear coats.
We came back to the hotel and let Ava swim a little bit. Lucas couldn't go have his first swim, he still has the ear infection. He enjoyed being there though.
Ava and Jay.
Lucas being a ham! He loves the camera.
Ava jumping on the bed. This was before dinner after her swim so she was nekkid. lol
We went to dinner that night and it was good but I had ice cold water dumped on me. They took my coat to let it dry out but my jeans were still wet. I was holding Lucas at the time. I don't think he got wet much at all. Thank goodness.
Ava slept a little better saturday night. She woke up at about 11pm screaming. She didn't open her eyes though and she calmed down after 15-20 minutes. She would not let us comfort her or anything. I think she had a night terror. She woke up a little bit when Lucas woke up but it didn't take long till she was sleeping again. We went to breakfast and then did some shopping. It took a little longer than usual for some reason. We didn't get home till about 7pm. We had to stop a few times for Lucas. He was getting tired of being in that seat. Ava was so happy to be in her own bed (crib). I had hoped that maybe she would come home and want to sleep in her bed but no such luck.
That was our very exciting trip. Maybe we'll get to do more next year.
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
Busy day
First of all Lucas was up at 1030 last night. He's been sleeping through the night but the past couple of nights he hasn't done well at all. Then he was up at 345am! Oh my gosh I was so tired and had to go into class today to take a test. I don't think I did that well. I didn't get much time to study and I felt I had to rush because I had to get home to take Lucas to his 4month checkup today. I can't wait to see what my score is on that test. I'm going to try to study 1 hr every night from now on.
I did all that rushing around and was about 20 minutes early. Then the girl at the front desk tells me they don't have an appointment for him. I have the card that says he had an appt today at 1015am. Luckily they had an opening at 1010. I didn't really love the dr though. I don't know what it was. He checked Lucas's ear and held his head down to do it. Poor baby was screaming! The female drs look into my kids ears while they are sitting in my lap. Then Ava kept messing with the scale. I was trying to talk to the dr and not paying as much attention to her as I should have. But he grabbed her on the arm. She's kind of afraid of strange men. That just really irked me. As well as the nurse telling Ava to clean up the books after I had told her to do it. Like I wasn't going to make her do it? I don't think I'm going to see the male dr anymore. I can't explain it, but I didn't leave there feeling good. This is the first time we've ever seen him. We've always seen a different dr with Ava.
Anyway, Lucas is 17lbs 1oz and 26 3/8". He is longer but weighs less than Ava did at 4 months. He has an ear infection. I can't believe that I never even realized that was going on. Possibly why he hasn't been sleeping well lately. I really feel bad that he is hurting. He's apparantly had a minor cold too. That explains the coughing and wheezing.
I keep putting off that invasive species report. I don't know why I keep doing that. The paper is due on monday. We're gone the whole weekend to Mackinaw City. So I have tonight and tomorrow night to work on it. I guess I'm not sleeping for the next couple of nights. After this I really need towork on my plant collection report and then my animal behavior report. Geez, I hope the next class doesn't have any reports.
The rest is not significant.
I did all that rushing around and was about 20 minutes early. Then the girl at the front desk tells me they don't have an appointment for him. I have the card that says he had an appt today at 1015am. Luckily they had an opening at 1010. I didn't really love the dr though. I don't know what it was. He checked Lucas's ear and held his head down to do it. Poor baby was screaming! The female drs look into my kids ears while they are sitting in my lap. Then Ava kept messing with the scale. I was trying to talk to the dr and not paying as much attention to her as I should have. But he grabbed her on the arm. She's kind of afraid of strange men. That just really irked me. As well as the nurse telling Ava to clean up the books after I had told her to do it. Like I wasn't going to make her do it? I don't think I'm going to see the male dr anymore. I can't explain it, but I didn't leave there feeling good. This is the first time we've ever seen him. We've always seen a different dr with Ava.
Anyway, Lucas is 17lbs 1oz and 26 3/8". He is longer but weighs less than Ava did at 4 months. He has an ear infection. I can't believe that I never even realized that was going on. Possibly why he hasn't been sleeping well lately. I really feel bad that he is hurting. He's apparantly had a minor cold too. That explains the coughing and wheezing.
I keep putting off that invasive species report. I don't know why I keep doing that. The paper is due on monday. We're gone the whole weekend to Mackinaw City. So I have tonight and tomorrow night to work on it. I guess I'm not sleeping for the next couple of nights. After this I really need towork on my plant collection report and then my animal behavior report. Geez, I hope the next class doesn't have any reports.
The rest is not significant.
Sunday, October 07, 2007
Pumpkin picking
So we went yesterday to pick out pumpkins. They have this package where the kids can go on a hayride and do some other fun stuff. I didn't realize that it was all built in together like it was. Here she is on the hayride along with some of the other people in the playgroup.
And here is the three of us. Neither of my kids is looking at the camera. lol
Then the kids got to ride on these John Deere pedal tractors. Ava doesn't know how to pedal. I guess we need to get her a bike or something. I had to push her on the tractor. She kept getting her feet caught up in the pedals. This is her on one of them but she was mad that I moved away from her.
And we are still in Michigan. It was sooo HOT! I can't believe this is October. I didn't bring along any water. I didn't think we were going to be gone for that long.
This is Ava running through the sorghum path. At first she was running then she slowed down quite a bit. I think it was too hot for her to acutally run anymore.
We got to pick out a pumpkin from a little area that they already had some pumpkins picked and set aside.
She tried to pick this one up. I handed her one that was just like it and she threw it. We didn't get this one.
We got this one.
Then the kids got to do some little games and stuff. They got little prizes, a spider ring, a little ghost finger puppet thing, a dinosaur egg, etc. The last thing they got to do is pick out a small pumpkin and decorate it. But they had markers to decorate with and Ava ended up with more markers on her hands than on the pumpkin.
Decorating her pumpkin.
After she was done with that I went inside and got some water. Ava grabbed an apple and started eating it so I had to buy that too.
During most of this time a nice lady in the playgroup held Lucas for me. It was nice to be able to chase Ava around and not have to lug him too. He fought sleep the whole time. When Ava was coloring her pumpkin I took his shirt off because he felt like he was too hot. After that he started talking and cooing. I think he felt better with his shirt off. Both kids did so good. I am so happy for that.
I told Jay I want to go back there. They had some yummy looking pies and stuff. I think I want to get Bubby a pumpkin of his own too.
This is Lucas chilling out after we got home with the nice A/C!
I noticed yesterday that Ava has a tooth coming in. Finally one of her two year molars. She woke up not long after we put her to bed last night. I gave her some teething tablets and put her back down. She seemed to be okay with that. We were watching Knocked up when she got up (we havent' gotten to finish yet) and it was at the part where the two guys were in LAS and they had strippers all over them. Ava says "Ohh, dancing" lol Yeah, I turned it off after that. I don't know if it was the teeth or her skipping her nap that made her get up last night.
Time to go take care of the kids. Ava is asking for more cookies (NO!) and Lucas is whining.
And here is the three of us. Neither of my kids is looking at the camera. lol
Then the kids got to ride on these John Deere pedal tractors. Ava doesn't know how to pedal. I guess we need to get her a bike or something. I had to push her on the tractor. She kept getting her feet caught up in the pedals. This is her on one of them but she was mad that I moved away from her.
And we are still in Michigan. It was sooo HOT! I can't believe this is October. I didn't bring along any water. I didn't think we were going to be gone for that long.
This is Ava running through the sorghum path. At first she was running then she slowed down quite a bit. I think it was too hot for her to acutally run anymore.
We got to pick out a pumpkin from a little area that they already had some pumpkins picked and set aside.
She tried to pick this one up. I handed her one that was just like it and she threw it. We didn't get this one.
We got this one.
Then the kids got to do some little games and stuff. They got little prizes, a spider ring, a little ghost finger puppet thing, a dinosaur egg, etc. The last thing they got to do is pick out a small pumpkin and decorate it. But they had markers to decorate with and Ava ended up with more markers on her hands than on the pumpkin.
Decorating her pumpkin.
After she was done with that I went inside and got some water. Ava grabbed an apple and started eating it so I had to buy that too.
During most of this time a nice lady in the playgroup held Lucas for me. It was nice to be able to chase Ava around and not have to lug him too. He fought sleep the whole time. When Ava was coloring her pumpkin I took his shirt off because he felt like he was too hot. After that he started talking and cooing. I think he felt better with his shirt off. Both kids did so good. I am so happy for that.
I told Jay I want to go back there. They had some yummy looking pies and stuff. I think I want to get Bubby a pumpkin of his own too.
This is Lucas chilling out after we got home with the nice A/C!
I noticed yesterday that Ava has a tooth coming in. Finally one of her two year molars. She woke up not long after we put her to bed last night. I gave her some teething tablets and put her back down. She seemed to be okay with that. We were watching Knocked up when she got up (we havent' gotten to finish yet) and it was at the part where the two guys were in LAS and they had strippers all over them. Ava says "Ohh, dancing" lol Yeah, I turned it off after that. I don't know if it was the teeth or her skipping her nap that made her get up last night.
Time to go take care of the kids. Ava is asking for more cookies (NO!) and Lucas is whining.
Saturday, October 06, 2007
Some random things
I wanted to post last night but got distracted. I wanted to do my invasive species project last night too. But I got to lazy to get my backpack to find the ones I'm supposed to do.
Anyway, yesterday Lucas was on his belly on the floor and pulling his knees up under himself. I tried to get a picture but by the time my camera was catching a picture he pushed his knees back. He was getting mad so I couldn't keep trying to time it just right. Maybe I should have recorded it. lol
Jay's still working the day shift and will be for another 8 weeks I think. Hopefully this is going to end up being a permanant thing. I could get used to him being home in the evenings. I just am losing time all by myself. :) Last night we went to a local restaurant to have some pizza. Ava did really good. She got up off of her chair but stayed close by. She really liked the train theme. Someday I think we'll have to get her to some kind of train museum. Lucas was pretty fussy, I had to transfer him to Jay halfway through dinner. I don't think we disturbed other diners.
We left there and Ava wasn't ready to go home yet so we drove around in the country for a bit. Lucas slept. Ava just watched what was going on. Then we stopped at McDonalds and got ourselves some shakes and came home and sat outside. It's really nice to have the family time like that in the evenings.
Today I am taking the kids to Nottawa Fruit Farm. Ava gets to pick out a pumpkin and do some other fun stuff. I hope she enjoys it. I'm a little nervous about handling both kids and the pumpkin by myself. Jay works today and gets off at 3pm. We're going at 12pm. It's with my mom's group. Ava should enjoy that part of it. She loves kids but is still kind of shy to just go off with them herself. We're still with just the one car so it's hard for me to get out with them. She needs more interaction with kids.
I may be back later with pictures from our adventure today. I've got to spend some time with my daughter for now.
Anyway, yesterday Lucas was on his belly on the floor and pulling his knees up under himself. I tried to get a picture but by the time my camera was catching a picture he pushed his knees back. He was getting mad so I couldn't keep trying to time it just right. Maybe I should have recorded it. lol
Jay's still working the day shift and will be for another 8 weeks I think. Hopefully this is going to end up being a permanant thing. I could get used to him being home in the evenings. I just am losing time all by myself. :) Last night we went to a local restaurant to have some pizza. Ava did really good. She got up off of her chair but stayed close by. She really liked the train theme. Someday I think we'll have to get her to some kind of train museum. Lucas was pretty fussy, I had to transfer him to Jay halfway through dinner. I don't think we disturbed other diners.
We left there and Ava wasn't ready to go home yet so we drove around in the country for a bit. Lucas slept. Ava just watched what was going on. Then we stopped at McDonalds and got ourselves some shakes and came home and sat outside. It's really nice to have the family time like that in the evenings.
Today I am taking the kids to Nottawa Fruit Farm. Ava gets to pick out a pumpkin and do some other fun stuff. I hope she enjoys it. I'm a little nervous about handling both kids and the pumpkin by myself. Jay works today and gets off at 3pm. We're going at 12pm. It's with my mom's group. Ava should enjoy that part of it. She loves kids but is still kind of shy to just go off with them herself. We're still with just the one car so it's hard for me to get out with them. She needs more interaction with kids.
I may be back later with pictures from our adventure today. I've got to spend some time with my daughter for now.
Monday, October 01, 2007
Keep your eye on the prize.
I'm getting a little overwhelmed with this biology stuff. It's a lot harder to take a class with two kids than I thought it would be. At least this class. It seems a whole lot harder than the last Biology class I had. I can barely find time to study. Ava and Lucas nap at different times. Jay is working first shift for a while so I have him here in the evenings. I should just go to the library when he gets home at night. Keeping my gpa up is important to me. I want to get into nursing school in May. I still have all three projects to get done. I'm going to be having some late nights getting those done.
Ava woke up crying at 1130 last night. I brought her into the living room to sit in the rocking chair. We sat there for about an hour. She doesn't usually just sit with me like that. She usually has to be doing something. She was holding onto my hand too. It was annoying that she had me up like that but also so sweet. I still don't know what was wrong with her. I got back from class this morning and she was happy and running around.
Lucas has been pretty whiney. He is getting to be such a momma's boy. If I'm around he wants me to be holding him or talking to him. He isn't that whiney for Jay. He's giving hugs now. Well, he lays his head down on my shoulder when I hug him. I wish he could stay like that forever. I just love him so much. He is getting to be too big. He's 4 months today. His dr's appt is the 10th so we'll have to see how big he is. I know he is way bigger than Ava was at this age.
We went yesterday to get both the kids fall/winter clothes. We got Lucas some 12 month clothes and they aren't that big on him. We'll probably have to get him all new clothes before the winter is over. This kid is huge! Of course the price of it all was jaw-dropping. Ava's clothes should last a lot longer though.
Ava woke up crying at 1130 last night. I brought her into the living room to sit in the rocking chair. We sat there for about an hour. She doesn't usually just sit with me like that. She usually has to be doing something. She was holding onto my hand too. It was annoying that she had me up like that but also so sweet. I still don't know what was wrong with her. I got back from class this morning and she was happy and running around.
Lucas has been pretty whiney. He is getting to be such a momma's boy. If I'm around he wants me to be holding him or talking to him. He isn't that whiney for Jay. He's giving hugs now. Well, he lays his head down on my shoulder when I hug him. I wish he could stay like that forever. I just love him so much. He is getting to be too big. He's 4 months today. His dr's appt is the 10th so we'll have to see how big he is. I know he is way bigger than Ava was at this age.
We went yesterday to get both the kids fall/winter clothes. We got Lucas some 12 month clothes and they aren't that big on him. We'll probably have to get him all new clothes before the winter is over. This kid is huge! Of course the price of it all was jaw-dropping. Ava's clothes should last a lot longer though.
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